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Sunday, April 16, 2006
miao siying ruoting you guys still rock. (:
and you'll always be the champs to us and we love you all the same.
no matter how cliched that sounds.
=)
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been going to ecp for the past few days.
friday early morning.
friday evening.
saturday afternoon. shall post photos up another time.
saturday evening after dinner at xiaohonglou.
beaches are... simply beyond what words can express.
but all that happened at the beach.
all the promises ive made.
everything ive been experiencing the past 3 days have flown out the window.
ive forgotten everything.
yes youve got it correct.
it's once again time for peiling to display her loserishness and idiocy.
today i realised the state i am in now- how pathetically vulnerable i am at this point in time.
funny how it takes so much to just get my level up a little.
but something small and seemingly insignificant can bring my level down straightaway now, without fail.
im just not being me.
whats happened.
to the girl who is always able to take things in her stride.
able to handle everything that comes her way.
to the girl who almost never feels like breaking.
right now im being everything im not.
when im spiritually low everything becomes a mess.
i know where i should start i know how to start but i just cant start.
do i sound emo? well im not being emo. because. im just not being emo.
do i sound angsty? well im not angsty. because im not angry at the world nor at the amount of freedom i have. duh. what's more after hearing from others/reading what others write i realise my parents give me quite a lot of freedom.
no im not going to take a penknife, hold it in my hand and place the ice cold blade on my wrist. that has never ever crossed my mind.
im just being a pathetic vulnerable idiot now.
i cant stand feeling so vulnerable.
so pathetic.
such a weakling.
but soon i'll be back to normal.
wont i?
will i?
im just being irritating.
i really should shut up.
i shall not blog anymore unless it's going to be happy post.
yes. that shall be the case.
desperate for Your touch, never needed it so much.
simplicity.
*****
simple facts
peiling
30 march
christian
tnsrgs
